dreams: July 26, 1998
Mom is defenseless
I go to open my shower at
Mom's
house, expecting to see if I left anything there. I open the
shower door and am suddenly shocked to see Mom standing there naked.
The water is not running. She's freaked when she sees me, her
whole body jerked with one strong jolt. I have the same sort of
feeling; that one moment when we first see each other is like the
feeling of almost hitting another car when you're driving or
something -- a split-second of fear and adrenaline. She wasn't
expecting to see me, and I wasn't expecting to see her.
[interp: All her defenses were down for that one moment.
She was "naked" and vulnerable to me seeing who she really is,
which provoked fear in both of us.]
a scary dive
NEXT, I'm watching two people get ready to dive into the ocean
from a ship. I'm on the boat with them. The ocean feels fake
and contained, like we're actually inside, or like we're at Disneyland.
One of the divers is a woman who's showing how she'll have to curl
up before she hits the water. She bends her knees into a sort of
backwards fetal position. There is a lot of risk in the dive.
It's scary.
my train
NEXT, I'm waiting for a train. I'm watching the horizon and
the tracks for it to come around. Finally I see it, chugging
along and blowing up puffs of steam from the front engine car.
Then I'm riding the train, but it's now small enough for me to
literally ride it (like a horse), straddling the top, sitting on
a couple of the cars. The sea is on my right; I can see the beach
far below me. The train feels good between my legs. I feel like
I'm about to come.
- FIN -