Sophomore year, and still alive. I realize now how much of a carefree life I had lead as a freshman. Ah those were the days... Well being a sophomore isn't all that bad. Swarthmore is feeling more _comfortable_ this year. But I have doubts I'll ever feel _right_ here. It's a struggle to piece together myself, my swattie self, and then my home self all into one person here at Swarthmore or anywhere else at the moment. However, I feel that the experiences that I have had here have been worthwhile, thought-provoking, and actually a little fun. I wonder whether it's just because I'm 19 and away from home that I'm struggling about who I am and I want to do (I mean really want to do). Or is it just Swarthmore that makes me feel out of place. I've got to admit sometimes I'm surrounded by people and just wonder if somehow I've slipped into some dimensional world from the twilight zone. But no one ever really feels like they fit in at Swat, or if they do they're one of those 5-year students that love the place so much they want to stay another year--I don't plan on being one of those (:

If anything Swarthmore is about individuality which can work for or against you. There's just something about Swarthmore that you just can't place. It's weird here, that's all I can say about it. But I was told by a friend as I talked to her once about how misplaced I felt at Swarthmore and she replied that I shouldn't worry so much about what it means to "be a Swattie" but just work on being myself and finding out what that means.

But life isn't always like the twilight zone at Swat, I've made some great friends here, and when we do all get together (at an ungodly hour of the night) and just gab about whatever. Most of the time we just end up talking about everything from our lack of love lives to just making faces at eachother. A good part of the time is spent laughing our heads off about some kooky think or other.

So what are the substantial things I've learned this year? Silverware can speak (Anna a spoon with an identity crisis , Shiela Spoon the nicotine addict, Dashing Knife, Knife's buddy Roger the Opera singing fork). Interesting things can come forth when five people of different lifestyles live in one three room block. Xylem on the inside Phloem on the outside. Getting a job is about finding out what you really want to do then applying, not the other way around. The walk from Pittenger to campus can be quite pleasant at times. Enrique Iglesias has a real sexy voice. Bean plants run on a circadian rhythm. I've probably learned some other things to but they slip my mind at the moment...

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