*especially for everyone*

 

I hate myself for this

I can't do this to him

and I can't do it to you

I just wish...

for the way you are now

vaguely getting that chance

way back when

you've admitted you changed

and I can't believe

I'd let you back in

but I think

I just never let you go

after all this

it's painful

and it hurts

either i'm lost without you

or i'm lost on my own

I can't see myself

as beautiful as they say

if you can't see me

that way too

I'll keep going on

that fake smile I always wear

especially for everyone

...except you

10/12/99

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